sometimes i don’t know if i’m the whole problem, or just half the problem

if i play a role, or if there is something i’m missing

i miss you, and i feel like i’ve fallen off whatever pedestal you had me on

it’s like when they say “you’ll let yourself down every time when you expect yourself out of someone else,”

it seems as if that is where we are meeting each other where we’re both currently at

it’s not somewhere in the middle, it’s not few and far between

it’s withdrawn and distant, it’s push and pull, and it’s hot and cold

it’s emotional whiplash, freeze and fawn

i have no idea what the **** we’re even doing anymore

because i find myself not even wanting to or caring to respond at all

emotionally exhausted
but still at your beck and call.