i’m real.. you won’t see me happy and jolly all the time.. but you won’t hear me complain about not being fine.. i have my share of days i don’t feel like getting out of bed.. putting on a fake smile nor care about my appearance or have an appetite.. i’ll want to do nothing but let my heart cry.. i know it won’t solve anything but it helps me heal everything i am feeling on the inside.. and sometimes the pain is too unbearable i cannot help but wish to die.. i try to find the strength to bring myself back from the ledge i know all too well.. for i’ve stood on it too close to the end more times than i could count.. yet somehow always find my way back following the light that brings me back to life..