Connected Is what I want us to be I should give us the chance No running away
The confidence we'll need We'll find If this is what will happen. I just want to trust In your eyes I will meet my fears And go beyond
It's gonna be worth it To show you my tears Fall into your arms I want this But it only will happen If it's supposed to. I can't force it, you know. Though I can stay present for us And believe in the best outcome. I'd never want to hurt you ever Trust me How you feel does matter To me
I am afraid And shaking insecurely Can you bear my unaware times Can you hold me when I am almost breaking in 1000 tears... Biting together my teeth Caring about what every body thinks..
I am honestly afraid To get lost in somebody else's eyes But if that's what is supposed to happen Then I guess it will ... Guess there's a part of me That's searching for someone else To fall for And that part I have tried to ignore But I'll try and accept it after all Otherwise it'll always be there... I know it's hard to trust When I tell you these things When I share everything.... Is it fair?
I still think I could get to know you better Every time I tried to listen to you You showed your true self Opened up I guess.. I might be too confused and distracted by my own self all the time..
I won't be sorry but I struggle on the inside. Will I be able to transform myself? Though then it won't be for you... Nor for nobody else. I have to do it for myself. Cause otherwise the lesson will come again... It will repeat itself.
From 2020, very interesting to read now and have the new perspective knowing "the future" I was so scared of back then.