we each bought a burrito from that same van i would visit back when i lived there two pork burritos one with added sweet potato brazenly requested the other simply the expected guac my overconfident request should have cost more than I was charged but the man serving could not bring himself to demand the full cost for "just" a burrito we sat and ate on the bank of the river that i used to think of as mine we bit we chewed we swallowed catching up as napkin-less salsa-dripping hands were licked clean and wiped dry across the thighs of already marred jeans