I keep falling in love with ghosts
They flitter in and fade away
Three little spirits slipped wetly into my hands
Bloody and beautiful; we called each other family
The foundation cracked and poison filled the gaps
They used to laugh and call me daddy
Now…silence and estrangement
That name is reserved for another
Everything in my life was thrown into a heap
Misunderstanding and pain collided to spark the flame
I walk through this new reality, ash covering my feet
Yes, bartender, I’ll have another
And another
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A wraith tall and handsome extended his hand in kindness
I reached with my entire being
Poured my heart into his chest
For a moment he washed me clean
We laid bodies entwined as poetry spilled from his lips
A summer zephyr under my wings
I was a phoenix
Balladry devolved to insult
He removes the dagger and ashes spill out
My brokenness is scattered everywhere
Yes, bartender, I’ll have another
And another
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Splintered, scaly hands attempt to rebuild
A heavy mind sits in an empty room
Passing by houses filled with the ones I love
Never fingers to grace cheek again
I’ve become the stranger that can’t find a home
Saliva stretches as lips part
Lungs evacuate and heartbroken cries disappear into the sky
This hollowness haunts me like an apparition
Love…the ultimate curse
It’s previous forms have burned me to ash
Yes, bartender, I’ll have another
And another
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.
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I’m in love with ghosts
They flittered in and faded away