I've been dragged away from the edge of the water, even though I wanted to jump right in
I'd been only swimming in the shallow corners, almost learned to let go and give in
Give in to the waves let them pull me further from the shore Give in to the tide, hear the ocean roar
But something happened then and I lost my sight of how and when For a minute I closed my eyes, thought I was lost at sea, but when I looked around there was no water to be seen
Just like someone came and took my hand and pulled me far away off to dry lands
Felt like memory loss, tried but couldn't remember why my feet were still so wet when I was in the centre of the forest splendour
And sometimes I recall the memories of the time when I almost had it all
I was getting so close, could barely believe that I had found the purpose of my reality
But not everything works out Lost sight of my true silhouette My head has been dry for so long, but my feet are still wet
Out of place Out of my mind Lost in the woods Lost track of time Take me back Now I recall why my feet are still wet I can still have it all
I'll drag myself back to the edge of the water and jump right in like I was meant to
I'll be swimming away into the deep end Giving in to the waves Giving in to the tide Giving in to the voices that I've kept inside
My feet are still wet and now I know why
A song (with a melody in mind) that I've written tonight. 🎵 For months I've felt like I was losing myself more each day. Fading... I've been feeling completely lost - like my life is going but I'm not really in it. Or not meant to be in it in this way. Out of place - this has been my most common thought. With my last poem published on this page in 2019, I've indeed lost touch with who I am. And after today's major breakdown, I finally know why I've been feeling so lost - because I keep trying to be someone who I am not. I am a songwriter, I knew this since I was 10. I wish I'd never let it slip away. But I want to get back. I know it will take time and practice to pick up a lost dream, but if I continue being who I am not, I will lose myself completely.