I've been standing in the water for a long time now searching for the end, but only tripping over stones in the pathway. Someday my pain will fade away, but sadly I'll have to go as well don't cry yourself to sleep. It'll make me happy to die while I still feel alive. This disease has eaten all that I'm made up of. Do this for me, when I'm drifting away, please hold me tight. I rather not be alone. Instead, point out my favorite constellations, carve this date into a tree, and sing to me. Just please sing to me. I'll find peace in your words and, I'll catch the tears that fall from your redden cheeks and hold them close to me. There's probably a better place somewhere out there for me. A place where there is no pain and no suffering because this cancer is slowly killing me, and I can't live in this state anymore. I'm sorry. This world isn't for me so I must leave. I must leave.