I feel the guilt dripping down on my motionless body I feel the shame being stabbed in my heart and being twisted multiple times so it‘s sure I can feel it repeatedly I feel all at once and I become a statue I feel the depressive thoughts being dropped right in the center of my head making it all filled with dark ashes transferring to grey clouds gradually I feel the anger heating up under my room temperature flesh I feel all at once and I become a statue and I think about how all these feelings can disappear if you just hugged me oh how I need your hugs when I feel all at once oh how I need your hugs to feel protective and safe just one more time to have you by my side I would do anything sometimes I get to feel your love from the other side but that’s not enough most nights. I feel all at once and I become a statue