I feel like a remote. A tiny remote in the hands of a giant Toggling through channels Accidentally pressing every other button than the intended I have no control I have lost sense of where I am in space I am helpless Vulnerable to the choices of the giant Constantly fluctuating between states of fear And peace Never knowing when each state will change Never knowing how long I will have peace Before the fear arises I am just a tiny remote In the hands of a giant.
Currently battling feelings of trauma sneaking up and hijacking my peace of mind.