I wonder if the mothers of the Boys we fall in love with Know that they are the Monsters we fear that Lurk in the dark. I wonder if the boys we Fall in love with know That we break and fall Apart within their grasp When they say, "I love you." I wonder if they can Hear us scream their names When we have the nightmares About their beautiful voices Echoing through the night.
I wonder if they know The pain that they cause Within the bodies of future Mothers who warn their daughters About the men who've hurt them.
All I do is wonder.
I base the love that I have off of the monsters that plague my nights of sleep because I am too strong during the hours of my wake.