How do I change?
I want to give up
Things have been this way for so long
Tried before but I'm not strong enough
Maybe I've been doing it wrong

I am only human after all
The gutter for me is home
I get so used to the fall
Ground becomes a place unknown

Beautiful but don't know it
Mind not able to see
The sky from where I sit
Full of shame
Somehow still empty

When I watch loneliness take its toll
(It's quite a hefty amount)
Weak throughout my entire soul
Not one part without

Remember it is darkest right before dawn
If no light can be seen
Things that frighten in shadows on the lawn
Come morning will feel like a dream

Made it through most terrible storms
Because I survived
Witnessed Lucifer take on many different forms
Each time he dies
Another revived

Can tell the difference between right and wrong
The good and evil overlaps and combines
Can go forward but only for so long
I get lost cause I can't read the signs

I wanted to be much more
Felt I had the capability
There still is hope that it's not too late for
Me to blossom into the flower meant to be