Compressing my heart Between the palms of your hands Tear it into tiny bits Until nothing else stands Repeating the words under breath Love me, Love me not Debating with your heart Careful not to get caught Take heed in my words And my cries in the night Spew apologies with guilt Don't take it too light Distinguish for yourself Between right and wrong Boundaries and respect Aren't particularly strong Know my pain on the surface Change nothing within existence Haunted feelings unkept Cause me to grow distance Decide is what I want But choice isn't simple I won't be the one I know Unfair and Unjust Knowing too well Hatred or rejection I wish not to know In silence, I shall keep As feelings begin to grow Wishing to love you endlessly And for you to do the same But I know its hopeless As your voice still calls her name A ghost he says Floating about An exorcist I say Is what I'd love to shout But I know more and more That's impossible, I doubt I just want your love with no strings attached My heart already feels it, But I can't allow it to be unlatched Secured in the vault, unwavering at its bolts It can't, I won't allow it to be released Not until the ghost is gone Though that won't ever happen Unless I want to become scorned. I care beyond the brink of love I don't wish to leave But this pain that constantly echos Causes me to grieve
Please... Just don't hate me for feeling this way.