Uncertainly still lingers in the cracks of my future, but I am feeling so full. So full of goodness and growth. Optimisims and joy I've grown so much from the me just a year ago. I speak now. I can speak. Ive been gentle with myself, and allowing of rest. I am feeling so full of acceptance and self- love. Something I thought I didn't deserve. Some days are so hard still, but I remember when I sat down in therapy the first time, and cried my eyes out begging to be healed and that I felt so broken. Irreparable. The words cut at my throat as I released them. I never thought I'd make the growth that I have so far. I feel like a full being. I feel healed and capable of healing. To all of you in rough times of stagnation or the cold swift waters of change It will be ok. Allow yourself time. Change comes like warm water. Unnoticed until submerged.