the thing is, you will never move on. you will never forget it. you will never get over it. it will haunt you until you die. it will torment you like a nightmare every time you close your eyes, it will burn you, constantly, over and over again like a thousand bees stinging you all at once. you will never get over it, my dear, i can tell you that. and i cannot promise you that it will get better either. maybe it will. but for most, it never does. so im sorry you were ruined at such a young age, that such a young and innocent life had to be taken so soon, even before you were really gone.