she begged for god but god left a long time ago. i could understand where she saw hope, but the light she saw was just the spark of a lighter. another day passed, another moon risen. we paint our faces like babylonian ****** and step out into the streets to drown our troubles in ***** and older men. we lie to our parents when we come home, but we are still little girls who smell like cigarette smoke and ***. her room is filled with dead artist on her wall, records in the corner, a forgotten guitar she often glances at before meeting me under a streetlamp. we quote jim morrison and sing amy winehouse as whiskey slides down our throats and burns our chests. the men we drink with say we remind them of their daughters but by the end of the night the liquor in them draws them to our 'old souls'. and now you watch her from the other side of the bar, the eye contact holding a lust and desire only eros could create. as you swig back the amber liquid in your glass, only one thought suffocates all others; you'll have her begging for god tonight.