You don’t realize, do you?
What you’ve done to me...
To be fair, I never said anything
But I’ve always been afraid of you
Hidden my thoughts
Hidden my emotions
Hidden my pain
Hidden my belongings
Hidden my journals
Hidden my stories
Hidden my poems
Hidden myself
All from you
Because of that feeling
I’d get in my gut
When you’d call my name
And I knew something was wrong
And I knew it was my fault
Still, I fear that dread
The thought I’ve failed you
Your disappointment was always
The heaviest weight to bear
And when I don’t carry it
I feel it’s presence lingering
Pushing my thoughts beyond the rational
Into a deep, painful sense
Of paranoia