What if we kissed in the moonlit snow Hidden behind that low brick wall Surrounded by the vines? What if you could hold me close And never want to let go When all was said and done? What if we could be happy Ever after, after all Could it be true love?
If only these things happened in reality, If only it wasn’t just a dream.
Yes, I dreamt of you last night. I thought of others as I drifted off to sleep But none of them can keep my headspace. I want to die every day Waiting Wanting Hurting. I dreamt of you and it was so real that when I woke up I cried a little. Because though I could still feel your breath on my skin and the bite of the cold It wasn’t real. You don’t love me. My life feels a waste. To love so deeply and be slapped in the face With the words, “I don’t feel for you that way” God is a cruel master I feel like dying For it was so real, so lovingly true (at least to me,) That when I woke up I died a little.
What if we really caressed as lovers do Under the falling icy sky Deep within the brambles? What if we really touched and loved and smiled Living for one another Under that grey sky? What if we really were as one And my days were not wasted pining And I was truly happy?
What if I could find someone who pushed you out of my mind? Can I even hope to be happy? I doubt it, love Because until I can I will continue to want to die.
Hnnng I thought I was over him but nahhhh life isn’t that fair