you don't look sick you don't look like your entire world has been falling apart for years and you're only holding on by a thread. you don't look like you cry yourself to sleep every Sunday at 4 pm when no one else is home. you don't look like you've been ignored by your friends and family because they can't deal with someone else's feelings and problems right now. you don't look like you've been in bed for four days straight, haven't showered or brushed your teeth because what would be the point when you have no inclination to even leave your house. you don't look sick. that's the sickest thing you can say. because i don't have a physical handicap that society has associated with all sick people. because you don't see the days when i just stare at a blank wall because there is nothing nothing and no one that interests me.
and don't get me wrong. i love you all. i just have no support from you because you don't see my illness and you can't be bothered. it's fine. so i hide it further until i can't anymore and i find help and support because i don't want to do it alone