I want to be good
I want to be smart
I want to be kind
Clever, beautiful, healthy...

But I also want
I want to destroy
I want to be stupid
I want to be reckless
Sick, twisted, crazy...

I want to be pure
But I want to do whatever
Will clothe me in dirt
I want to be responsible
But I chase anything
That offers a sweet excuse

I want to be respectable
To be strong and stand tall
But I want to drown
In anything intoxicating
To let me stumble and stagger
In ignorance and bliss

And all of this
Makes me so crazy
I want to be angry
I want to
SCREAM