I erased all the words about him yes, removed completely from my works because shame is all I feel when I look back a guilt so heavy and repressed so quieted and tucked away I pledge to myself I must never mention it and vow to try and rid the wicked from my mind mistakes I’ve made and made again sorrows so burdensome that I not even look that myself, so ignorant and blind dare toss away a future for a moment I shudder at my folly I wonder why I was so blind then so swept up in a great faux pas how naive I was! how childlike and gullible this I must confess