Once upon a time I came into this world Where I've made bad decisions and wrong choices. Where I don't like everything. Where everything's different than my expectations. Where my strength seemingly lost beneath the shadows of my soul. Where I had trusted the wrong people once again. Where everything I do, I am at loss. I find myself standing no where. I cannot achieve my dreams So, I have to dare myself. Dare myself to dream. To fly high and high in the starry sky. I have to stand again to make a change in my life. I have to let the colors of my heart take command that " Yes, this time I will. " I have to paint myself in a picture, where I am nourishing my soul. Where I am reaching my dreams. Opening up my heart and letting go all the sorrows and grief from the past one year I have endured. Closing my eyes and searching for self love which can make my soul glow. Telling myself once again that everything starts with me. One warm hug can make me full of life and energy to appreciate myself more for all those mistakes I have made. I found myself reflecting on the memories of the past. And I wish I could hold my broken self in my shattered hands. Strengthen myself and wash away my all fears, Give the world around me peace and happiness. So, my innerself can once again know that I still have time for the breaths I have yet to take. For all those unwrapped memories, I still have to unfold. For those passions, secrets and dreams I have yet to discover. I have strength in me for all the new adventures of my life. I know, destiny is strange with its twists and turns. I've learned that I still have to learn a lot. Again, I am going to live this day like the first time. I make promise to myself that I will make the most of the moments again and again. Maybe I will mistakes again for the first time. But I will smile, I will feel hurt and cry old tears. I will try for myself again. I will pray to ALLAH for guiding me on they right way. After the completion of every year On a special day of my birthday. I will write something again to encourage myself for the next year. I will write some words to heal my injured soul with the bruises of last year. I will console my soul. The birthday girl on her birthday will appreciate her soul and gather courage to complete one year more with the words " In Sha Allah" on her lips.
The best gift I always give myself on my birthday is a poem written to me by myself.