Is my cause to live the cause for eternal death? Is my cause for death my cause for eternal life? As I have mentioned in my other writings, nothing ever dies. The physical form diminishes into thin air and rots, and the soul, the spirit, the ghost, takes on a new form. This bordem got me feelin' weak. Hearing other peoples thoughts, conversations, am I being tested to immoral justice? Am I being tested to focus on the subconscious, even though it hurts more than the conscious. It hurts, to have a gift of such empathy and unconditional love. I feel 100 knives stab me all at once. It twists through the knots of my intestines It rips my skin off and allows my blood to pour It pulls my heart out and has me aching in misery BETRAYAL It's something I've experienced but still experiencing. It HURTS. So bad, my mind has me in sorrowful loneliness. "Cannot trust anybody" She says a million times, and that voice, that voice is right. They smile to your face but whisper unwanted words to your back. The wonder of who's real has me whimpering in weakness. I have become weak and it is my thoughts to blame. I fear them... Nobody to trust but my unwanted pain.
Cannot trust anybody, the 5th chapter of my life: Trust