thank you for teaching me
what i could not learn
on my own

in a way you empower me
yet i constantly
am belittled
by the pressures unspoken

i am powerful
i am powerless
and i am humbled
by the sharp stabs
to my confidence

at times i feel superior
to all negative forces
but then you come around
to destroy me yet again

i will let you in no more
for i am bigger than
the insecurities
and the headaches
i am forced to endure
every
second
of
my
life.

to be indubitably fearless
is an amazing thing
to think that nothing
nothing
could ever
hold me back

but the thought
of never again being restrained
is foreign

to be fearless
is ideal
but could never be possible
when you fill me with doubt
and regret
and negative energy

but to be fearless
is to look you in the face
and say
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