If I'm worth the fight, then I can take a hit. It isn't whether I win, it's if I refuse to quit. That's funny, because just wait, for about 24 hours. Where I'll gain the tremors, but lose uncertain power. An inner conflict is my battle, but one I don't think ends. Should I be authentically useless? There's a home I could transcend. I could ascend upon my limits, I'm a king to every kind of thinking. I control my darkness, in the rapid form of blinking. Open, close, open, close, My fists could match the sides. They're knocking on my skull, of course I'm gonna abide. I lost purpose when I dropped value, when nothing stopped me from the pain. if all I give to the world is anger, why shouldn't I receive the same?? ---------------------------------------------
I relapsed again, I hate myself. Punched a wall so hard I instantly bruised my knuckles. Pulled out a patch of my hair. Made my leg blue from hitting it so hard. I feel like I deserve this. And is my thought differing from the truth? I don't think so. Keep living, y'all. I'll do the same. All feedback is welcome and appreciated.