you asked me why i didn't come looking for you. and you assumed it was because i didn't love you enough. because i didn't want you enough. but the truth is, i couldn't stand rejection; i couldn't stand you looking at my soul and mocking it. i couldn't stand losing myself because that's all i ever had. and i already lost so many parts of myself for the people i love that i can't do it anymore. i gotta fall in love with myself before i can fall in love with someone else, i hope you understand that.