I used to sit and text you for hours
we could discuss every possible event
endlessly mentioning every part of our lives

nothing bored, nothing planned, nothing forced
everything came from a place of genuine emotion
I remember how happy and safe this made me felt

it was almost two years ago when we learned to dance
not only with each other in public
but also to dance around topics
to dance around what we were
to dance around our emotions
to dance around using words like "Kiss"

and now we are dancing together again
at all the parties and in all of our conversations
everything is blissful

no one mentions the history
no one mentions the emotions
we pretend we are new again
we pretend we don't know how this will end

we are not bored, not planned, not forced
everything is coming from the genuine emotions we have
but I don't maintain happiness
I don't feel safe anymore.