everyday i want to say goodbye instead of hello, bonjour, hi everyday i want to seclude myself instead of escaping this shelf
as i mingle with other people, i see myself laughing, laughing without feelings, smiling with a heavy heart
i thought i healed, i succeeded, this thorn pierced on my chest, but it was all a lie, i was anesthetized with illusions
what i always thought, what i always felt; all this time, i wasted, to feel what i had to for myself
this may seem to be a very confusing poem. might have some errors in writing this but i hope that you guys can get something from it. i just feel so numb today.