As a baby I was not wanted
To this day my mind's still haunted
How could you let me go
You should have been strong enough to say no
I want to know my real father
But you don't know so why should I bother
You tell me your sober and doing great
But my entire life my heart's been filled with hate
As a baby you were supposed to show me love
But you were never around when push came to shove
My brother and sisters hardly ever ate
Because you never put food on our plate
The things you did messed up my mind
I feel like I am always behind
You made me live my life with anger and rage
My whole life my heart's been locked in a cage
I can't be free and open
My whole life my heart's been broken
There are to many words left unspoken
But we will never truly talk because those wounds can't fully reopen
You may be my birth mother
But I was raised by another
I want to scream and cry out
But those emotions I have lived without
I want to tell you how I feel
The things I've heard can't be real
You should hear what people say
If it's true you need to pray
Your going to go straight to hell
Because you did not live your life well
I no longer want to be under your spell
And have my heart and mind locked in a cell
There's nothing more that I'd like to do
Then tell you I forgive you and have it be true
I know you live not far from me
But to see you I don't know what my reaction will be
One day we may meet you'll have to wait and see
Til that time I will continue trying to be the best me
I know these words will make you sad
That makes me feel really glad
I could go on for a while
Till these pages stack up in a pile
But I feel better now then at the start
I feel a little less hatered in my heart