I think I am still in a state of shock
Staring vacantly at the wall
Trying to ignore my phone, the fact
My inbox has zero missed calls.

I'm pretending you miss me
And any moment my pocket will ring
I will pick up and hear your voice
Saying you take back every hurtful thing.

Need to touch your skin again
This empty bed haunting me
This is not what I meant when I said
"I cannot wait til the day that I'm free."

Each time I close eyes at night
I replay words in my mind
Wonder how the last few weeks
I could have been so ******* blind.

Why didn't you tell me sooner?
I whisper when you are not around to hear
After all, today was the date that would have marked
Us being together an entire year.

I could have listened and you could've shared
We couldve worked it all out
But waited until now to inform me
This is what you've been thinking about.

Think about the love we share instead
How can you not feel it anymore?
What did I do? What's the hell happened to you?
To change our romance from the way it was before.

I ponder if you're happier now
Sleeping in bed alone
Than you were laying with me
Bet you're fine all on your own.

Reminders of you everywhere
Scattered across my room and head
I cry when I think about how many times
We have dreamt together in my bed.

People assure me it will get better
That I have to be strong
It's hard to act like I'm okay
Every breath I take feels wrong.