Innocent until self-awareness. Frozen halo.forming formless pagans, to help start a holy war. Poet prophet. Poems used as garnish methods to people's insecurities. Consulting monks libraries. Cinnamon sigh, nicotine hitting bloodstreams, flower carpets, sullen and sudden in metaphors, concerto sweeping movements, yielding in romance, fruitful as flowers lay as carpet for Earth’s land.

Poetic romance

Destiny in romance

Love and lingering yearnings

Always chasing

It takes something more than confidence to allow yourself to be what you’ve always wanted to be and still go beyond. Inside or outside poetry

To whenever you find truth, you’re generally alone

Spike

Life is not a poem, let it be spontaneous, fulfilling of passion, with art following behind as art is created by it’s own deriving birth, it reveals meaning as its need to show in experience, as my eyes see nothing but dreams, roses at my feet, hopeless key to your heart. Eternally chase always. There’s something addictive to be in the yearning of life. Sometimes to live, is to endure, killing courage in the process. To be loved, hmmm, conflicting, I want to. Yet not brave enough to be. Being pulled apart.

Suffering more so from private imagination than in reality, making reality always looking softer

Eyes drunk upon original beauty,
yearning of love, nothing but a famous
thought, famed poetry. Tears of Muses,
it’s surprisingly overwhelming in addictive
waves, how divine anyone can become.
Sharing streams of consciousness with
one’s own Muse. For I stumbled upon
love, where their beauty had allured me
in, romance nothing but a cage. I dare
not to escape, for everything now has
Completely lost it’s value.

Without thy lover, sadness caught in my throat,
unable to speak and easily seen. Knowing it
isn’t impossible to express everything running
through the mind. Just in separate poems. I’m
only heading towards attention being the presence
of my lover, elevation in illumination, to everyone
else is mundane, dull and local, lacking in
substance, mystical attributes, originality. For my
Muse has left to that other place, leaving us to
be fully. For I will ****** the entire humanity
in exchange to spend forever with thy lover.
For now, I’ll accepting my soul-selling to thee.


There’s something addictive about the
romantic yearnings, that brings not only
meaning, it magical produces and highlights
one's own destiny. Poet, though it can
produce the most spellbinding poetry
while in this state. Do not dwell and embellish
it, garnishing it with poems. Always put in
the work and meditate over the time your
yearning changes from dreams to reality.

Muse, perhaps poetry is similar to philosophy,
questions without answers, just with romantic
overtones and beautiful veils that is all derived
from something dark and painful. To which to
poetry I can dedicate myself to, not only it
seduces me from it’s tempting words, pulling
me in, to which I thought where I would find love,
in the end, it heals my wounds. Leaving me
alone, asking if there is actual love, that poets
had been talking about, since Plato’s time.
But to each of us, that can provide this life a
particular talent and skill, matching our own
rhythm and suffering. I’m rubbing my skin against
poetry, words instead of fingers and breathing,
holding Nizsetche hands, walking into church
and bursting into a ball of flames, confessing
my own trembling desire, faces of poetry stepped
on to every step taken, thinking I’m being placed
on the hall of fame, I just turned sober and left
with the fall of shame. Not with innocence, my
life happens when I shut my eyes. Let the suffering
write out a new philosophy, just the smash everyone’s
own dreams.


I felt the absence of life in most,
so I turned to poetry for life instead
and felt no regret since. And there
is nothing as beautiful, than the life
I missed out on, as the life I experience
could make me smile, because no other
life could do.


Freedom, the secretive and conclusive gesture,
that life has bread in the either, echoing with it
in the air, perhaps it’s greater than love to the
poets. It is all that above, freedom is, or it does
not exist. There’s a scent to it, as our hands
naturally know how it feels, to every attempt to
grasp upon and hold. Only in moments of death,
perhaps as we let go the life we had just lead,
we can finally experience it, providing better
ecstasy than any illumination. I had always for
something, I could never touch. Poetry cannot
constantly be split into dreams and reality.
For I have no-idea how the soul stays sane,
living in this duality. For me, it’s useless being
alive, if one is not the path of personal revelation,
whether that’s in love of thy soulmate, or just
the transcendence of one’s illumination. But the
saddest thing is, is not whether we can reach it
before death, it’s that those rare people who do,
get frowned upon, be called mad, and turned
away into exile, by the layman's-mundane ignorance.
Finally breathing through the wind, as my body
dives into the bath of Muses below, where I’m
blessed with martyrdom, which is the highest any
human can achieve. It isn’t really true, just because
you witnessed a person die for it. Even though
my life was a discovery of things, worth dying for
like my love for my soulmate.  
(Why be master, when one can be king?)


The only problem with the self,
that is, there is so many various
ways that the perception works.
Eternity maybe longer than life,
arh and lucidity in the sense of
my Muse, acting as a Higher Power,
suspecting in yearning that isn’t
human. Poetry leaves only passages,
it’s like any other art. Lessons in
symbols. Not in a state of constant
dreaming. Individual fate. My
own future, being a parent - present,
melts in my hands now. I’m in
a constant state of illumination.