"I'm okay" I try to reassure myself. "I will be okay," then I glance at the clock.
It's 3 am, and here I am once again. Sitting on the floor with tears in my eyes, remembering when you told me you weren't like all the other guys. And you weren't. You were worse, you did things they could never do. Like actually making me fall in genuine love with you.
"He'll come back" I whisper under my breath. "He promised."
You told me your secrets, and you held me to your chest. You'd wipe the teardrops from my cheeks, you made me feel blessed. You'd look me in the eyes and whisper I love you. Oh how badly I wish, I'd never believed, the beautiful lies you spoke to me.
3:04 Text Message Delivered
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"This clingy bitch again?" He mumbles to himself.
It's 3 am, and I just got this text. It's another fucking rant, from another crazy ex. I aint tryna fall in love, I aint tryna settle down, but here's my deepest apologies for fucking around. I wanna be alone, but I don't like being lonely. And I can't get my fix from my bro's and my homies.
"Well fuck, she was loyal, and she was always there. Maybe I do actually care..?"
Look I aint mean to break your heart, I'm sorry bout that. I know it means nothing but here are the facts. I'm genuinely sorry, and I really want you back.
I'm sorry but the number you're trying to reach is no longer accepting messages from you
You're too late.
This is just me having a conversation with my ex in my head. I loved him so much but if he ever comes back it'll be too late. Because I've waited for months and he hasn't come back. It's time for me to finally move on.