Your soft skin is pale and transparent A no longer beating heart is portruding as if it was so to say: let me finish this. There wasn’t a chance to finish, you left undone Your skin still so translucent and clear Your blue lips sealed as if they were to say: Please be gentle. You shot yourself in the chest so that your face will remain beautiful And yes – you’re beautiful as you’re lying there on a cold metal table Soon scissors and knives will rip open your abdomen and examine what you left behind Maybe your liver will tell them the stories of how we met at a bar and how you loved drinking too much wine Maybe your lungs will reveal that – sometimes, when you were mad at me – you smoked cigarettes Maybe your mouth will speak about that one time we kissed at the cinema for the whole film Maybe they will forcefully open your eyes to see if you’re still watching I hope that when they sew you up again, they’ll leave a tiny crack in your chest for your soul to leave Let it fly out the window and watch sunsets with me
Yesterday I had someone clean your room The police came and took some things with them They took your suicide note with them, for the file they say You’re a file now They asked about the ****** blanket And I told them you wrapped yourself into it so that your ****** torso wont make a mess Which is kind of funny because the mess really just started when they took the blanket and left me there, alone, in an empty room.