I'm in love with this boy
Who drinks so much at times
That he fails to recognize me
And pushes me away
Like the cold beer bottle
He just emptied
Before falling on the floor
And closing his eyes for the day
I'm in love with this boy
Who takes days to reply to my messages
But texts me whenever he is bored
He knows that I'll leave everything at once
Just to talk to him whenever he wishes to
He tastes like tobacco and kamikaze shots
Doesn't cares if I wear a **** brown shade
Or an oxblood red
It doesn't makes any difference in the dark
When my mouth he explores
like it's a diamond mine
But his hunger for me subsides
As soon as the sun rises up
I want him to ask me out
for coffee and movie dates
But he only wants to meet me
In hotel rooms and nearby bed and breakfasts
Where he can love me I guess
But I only hear him saying
Are you ready for round two
Sometimes I ask him
How often do you think about me
Do you see us together in future too
To which he tilts his head
And scratches the nape of his neck
Then says
Some questions are better left unanswered
Cause future is uncertain you know
And at that moment
I struggle to hold back my tears
And attempt to smile a bit
I don't know why I love this boy
But I do
And I hate myself for it