I will be completely honest with you
Im currently drunk as I write this.

For tonight a man stirred the anxieties
That have been buried in my bones.

My mind cycled through every moment
I have ever felt fear caused by a man.

My body hurt in every exact spot
My skin has ever been bruised by a man.

My heart screamed in agony
From every lie a man has fed me.

Tonight I drank until all I could feel
Was round glass resting on my lips.

You see, tonight a man wanted me
But I was far too scared to kiss him.

Tonight I said no, for I was uncomfortable
And stood up for myself.

I am so proud of my progress in self worth
And yet I am still hiding behind *****.

-ARI