A slip
                        A stutter
I fell way deep          
          Into that trap
     my life once surrounded
     just as it surrounded me

i could not escape
until it no longer wanted me
and put me high high high up
Out of the temptation
Away from the attention

I so desperately wanted to just jump
Jump and fall until
I hit that sweet spot
Back into it's entrancing world
But with every step I took towards
Falling in
The farther away the ledge was
From my feet.

Sealing off
a world that I was
Accustomed to

And now
I think about recovering
And also
I think about slipping back in
And
I think that I will never learn