I know the exact moments that you break through, and you are with me . I always love you for that. I feel you totally at times and am overwhelmed in so many wonderful ways.I really love you for that. Pain wasn’t something you dealt . You were a love dealer ...I completely loved you for that . I hate that you are gone still but I know you needed to go to be free . I just don’t want to be free of you . I still love you... even with that.