You ask why I don’t stay and fight. You ask if I realise that I can win as much as others. I tell you that everyone has a dream. And what I get by staying and fighting, are not my dream. That I cannot live in this world of regulated self-expression. Always fearing when I would spill out of the lines. So even if my broken is not as shabby and scattered. Even if my madness is not the sort that can get admiration. Even if my hands struggle with holding myself where I am. Just know that I leave, not because of aversion to this world, nor to find a better place. I leave cause I cannot breathe in water even if I want to.