I miss sleep. I miss the peace that comes with it. Erasing the day. Running rapid in the world of my subconscious. Those days seem so far away.
I find myself running on empty. On pure fumes. My thoughts are endless. Bringing me to the cliffs of mania. All my wants, needs, goals and things I want to accomplish keep me up until the sun peeks through my window pane.
I'm swimming in my own pool of exhaustion because my success hangs at my finger tips.
I find myself unable to shut it off. The desire. The passion, and determination that fuels me to wake up everyday. But, I am simply put, tired of running inside my head 24/7.
I want to slow down. But my need to succeed wins again. Overpowering my need to slow things down.
I wish you knew what it felt like to walk into a room, notice every color of every detail on every wall. To hear every sound, even the unnoticeable fly that circles round. The endless chatter of passing people. The entrance doors that squeak when you walk through the door. Knowing every exit to every room. It drives me crazy to notice so much. If only for just a moment I knew how to quiet the mind and drown out the sound. The sound of life all around me.. And how crazy this all sounds.