there are people on the internet who will always know more about me than my parents do. they’ll see my tagline and they’ll feel it the same way that i feel it the rush that comes with that very first introduction the freedom that tags along on the coattails of a name that at least one person will keep as yours they’ll feel the sadness that comes with the moment that someone you love turns out to not love you back well, not you specifically, but your kind as they say they’ll feel the dread that comes with the look in someone’s eyes when they find out about everything they’ll feel the excitement that comes along with the first smile that a stranger gives you when you introduce yourself and they don’t question your very existence or turn your greeting into a debate they’ll feel the solidarity. they’ll feel the community. two words that i broadcast to everyone except the two people who gave me two different words before they even asked what i liked.
mom. dad. i’m not your baby girl. i love you. this is me this is who i am and who i am isn’t going anywhere.
i hope one day you’ll learn to love him.
my friend is talking to me about his family and it prompted me to write about my own. i'll probably never be out to my parents, but it's fine. i'm not worried about it. it's just sad sometimes.