Is it supposed to hurt like this?
I don't know why
I am just so **** tired.
Shoot myself into eternal slumber.
They just called my number.
I'm gonna die alone.
The weakness of love has shown.
Breaking my back
from bending over you.
I'm gonna die alone.
Got no heart.
No soul.
Falling into a black abyss.
No one ******* knows.

It hurts to know I'm not enough.
But at least I try.
It hurts to k ow that you accept it.
But you deserve the world.
Sometimes I feel
like such a waste of time.
Should I leave you alone?
I'd rather be the first one to leave.
Oceans drowning me below.

I tried my best to fight it.
You're way out of my league.
But of course
you saw right through me.
******* disbelief.
Knowing that I have got no shot
makes me feel so weak.
But still I would do anything for you.
Falling down to my knees.

I'm kind of getting tired
of crying myself to sleep.
The scars are never fading.
The thoughts never leave.
I just want someone to love me.
Is that so hard to ask?
Drinking down the bottle.
Emptying my flask.