I burnt the bridge from me to you because I'd rather drown in the deep ocean blue than drown in the love that you never knew. I lost the battle but I can't lose the war so to save myself from crashing into it all I made a promise not to fall again, I thought about it more. I told myself that it's better to be alone because no one can hurt you. But it's not what I really wanna do because happiness is worth the sorrow yet I don't know if I'll want to see you tomorrow. I don't live on the edge like that. I don't let my heart free. A cage is where it's at. and I so desperately want to lose the key. So I'm going to be bitter. I'm going to be rude. I'll do anything I can to avoid getting *******. It's not what I really wanna do but I really need to get away from you. It's nothing personal, at least not anymore. I'm going to stay alone and I'm closing that door. Maybe the saying will be true, maybe another will open and it will be better than you.
Also wrote this poem in 2013, the same day as As Good As Dead. It makes me wonder why I felt this way given what I remember about this time in my life. Knowing the heartbreak I've been given since then can only make me see this past as comfortable in comparison.