hey,

i've sent u text messages
i've sent u friend requests
i don't know how to find you
is it even your number, still?
is it that you're still pretending
you don't know me?

listen,

what happened, happened
i slipped on purpose to try
i hit my head on the toilet
when i woke i was concussed
just and only, alone, lonely
without my friend

could i close my eyes
and go back in time
i'd go back and
choke myself out

i think of you once a day
no one asks, if they did
i'd go outside
sing as in prayer

hey,

if you need time between
the moment you left and
the moment you see me,
take all the time you need
but remember I love you,
let me know you're alive

listen,
listen
close,

the lines i crossed
i crossed easily
i'm sorry,
see me

i've never been so
ready to apologize
then again,
what does
that mean
when i'm
the one
you don't
mind is
gone?

hey,

i'll have you know, the life
you wanted and were in
was no more kind to me
the lover i loved from you
took advantage of my love
and infected me --

i hope you're still out