I have to block out thoughts of darkness so I don’t lose my mind
They fester like a septic wound, leaving me alone waiting for death
Dropping darkness and insecurity, to remind me that I’m alone
******* with my head till I can’t ever get back home
There’s a self loathing in my mind, Self pity seeping in my brain
And I really want you to just end me, will you take me down again?
And I never even said that I love you or tried to give you hope
Don’t ever try to fix me,
I am still so lost to myself

**** me today, **** me tomorrow
**** me for all the things that I always did to you

I’ve been on my own for 3 whole months
It’s something that has made me completely hate myself
And we were so poisonous back then, and it’s you I’ll never get to touch again
And I will never ever thank you for leaving me so very far behind
While I didn’t ever give a **** about us, you were always on my mind
You drove me mad with your constant attention pleas and a sadness that I hate
It’s something I can never deal with and now it’s way to fucken late
So I’m longing for you to end me now so these sick thoughts can leave my mind
And once again your ever so precious self can leave me far behind

**** me today, **** me tomorrow
**** me for all the things I always did to you
**** me in ways, ways hard to swallow
**** me so you can finally get past what I broke in you

And I never cared for the ways we always fought
And I kick myself for always rising to your **** stupid taunts
Like a stupid ***** i couldn’t let it go
Looking deep in your blue blue eyes, I know it’s me you’ll forever hate
I just wish I could make everything always just go away
I just want all this **** pain to ****** end, so **** all that’s left of me
I know you’re wondering “Why is she doing this to me

**** me today, **** me tomorrow
**** me for all the things I always did to you
**** me in ways, ways hard to swallow
**** me so you can finally get past what I broke in you