I miss you more than ever
My best friend
The one who long before you kissed me
Knew me
You cared for me
And loved me
You were my family
When I was all alone
And my home
When I needed a roof
You were my friend
When I did not ask
And my favorite person
Without any effort
Whose opinion was important to me
Whose words rarely bore me
Who motivated and cheered for me
Who promised you would love me
And promised never to leave me
Promised never to hurt me
And whom I didn't want to trust
Like that
But you knew me
I knew you
Loving you came easy
You were my person
You kissed me like you meant it
And oh, you meant it
That first kiss
Thinking about it gives me chills
Years of friendship
Of loyalty and respect
Comfort and confusion
Surprise and wonder
Releasing between our lips
You became more my person
Than I knew one to be
I miss our late night talks
About everything and nothing
Your hugs and your touch
And your smile
Your warmth in the winter
And in summer knowing you were close
I miss waking up to your kisses
And your arm finding its way to me in your sleep
Your sweet texts when I least expected
And using less sugar in sweet tea
You knew me
My pillar
My soulmate
My ever after
But can that ever last
That wonderful, beautiful
Love founded on friendship
From day one until it lasted
Until it stopped lasting
Six years of friendship
Two years as lovers
And then a version of you
Just like that
Emerged
Overnight
I was no longer your love
Your passion,  priority or joy
You pushed me and raised your voice
No longer a place for me
Not in your soul
Now your soulless body
Masked with cigarettes and beer
Fake friends and mean words
How do I know someone so well
Love so deep
Turn into my worst nightmare
Yet
I miss you more than ever
The man you used to be
The man you were to me