Today marks the day
I realize something about myself
Something that i wish it wasnt true
Something that I never imagined for me to have an issue with
Something unexpected that could affect the rest of my life
I thought I could handle it
I thought everything was gonna be alright
I thought it was no big deal
I thought i would never be that girl
that girl who trusted his "live the moment, because this wont last forever" words
the girl who lived up to his "why afraid of the future when we can hold each other right now" words
that girl who put faith in his "even in the end it will hurt. it will all be worth it" words
that girl who believed that she was too young to know about forever
that girl who cared too much
that girl who loved too deep
that girl who spent months or years to move on

But i was that girl
And he made me realize that
love is not for a moment
love is forever

and I should not play with love
because i barely survive my first heartbreak

and i just realized it now
I am the girl who should love
a guy who knows about forever