I’m learning the new language of love It’s cloudy and I’ve only broken sentences unfortunately already-fluent in the tongue of drunk hook-ups and meaningless touches and compromised endeavors and disguised intentions
I have never felt what I was promised I want to bathe myself in it showers pools seas of infatuation if it exists desperate for affection addicted to the idea that a soul could long for me craving something anything
something a little better than the french boy panting I love you’s in broken english mistaking my moans for those of intense, bearable pleasure
something a little more meaningful than the taxi-yellow lit disabled toilet on new years eve with a boy who flinched at the marks on my thighs
something a little sturdier than the 4:am coitus cuddling with a boy trying not to wake our friends on the shadowy bedroom floor