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It's cold down here 
You're pulling me down so deep
I'm terrified of the monsters that reside
in your depth
but the cold, while descending to the bottom,
is so refreshing

It's dark down here
I need to swim up for air
but my muscles are tightening
and I'm so scared
It's darker than velvet
I sense slight movement
indicating there is still life
in even the most deadliest of places

I'm known for wading
lingering on the surface
so this is further than I ever wanted to dive
But as my heart rate is slowing
I am becoming comfortable
with the frigid grasp
that I have been avoiding for years

It's cold
Please, just let me swim up
for one last breath
to feel the sun's warmth
one last time
before I try accept that this is
the right decision

I'm so scared.