my heart is on fire
my throat is closing in
my eyes are leaking
& im breaking down
i'm worried
that this is all in my head
what if i'm forcing this?
what if i'm not?
what if i love you?
what if i don't?
what if
what if it's in my head
& im self-destructing
i'm so sick of these
"what if"s circling my head
so what if
i'm confused
only because
**i don't like the answer