5/24/17

do not confuse moody
with impatience
you grew up in a ray of light
surrounded by warmth
people that set you up
to be the way you are
raised in togetherness
you never had that wholeness
ripped away from you
or experienced the death that
swallowed my own blood
confirming the dissonance
that was always to exist in my life
into an unknown
and so all my darkness
makes me "self-absorbed"
because it's so painfully affected my days
my weeks, my years
it's hard to simply ignore
because i was a plant half-watered
since the day i was born
and you received growth in abundance
so we assess the grey areas
and you fill the black voids
with white luminescence
so why are people are driven away?
you're always able to pull people in
with the right words to say
i fall for it, too
the seven of nightlights
a candle floating in a river
my flaws are the bend of a waterfall
i've sent you straight over the edge
once before
but you always burned fervently
all the while, engrossed and enveloped in me
this darkness unwavering
two kids in a living room
to two adults on the roof
just a moment
a split second
that preceded a memory ingrained