You wouldn't know,
what it feels like,
Tearing apart your heart,
You haven't seen the darkness
my future hides.
You haven't seen,
passed all the lies,
I have a much darker side.

You look into my eyes,

trying to figure out what pain, 

lays tormenting me inside
.
You're still blind,

to the things, I have done.

They don't see the tears,

behind the laughter
,
the hurt I feel it's like no other,

It can't be fixed, by another.

All the secrets of my past,

just another memory 
in the shattered glass.

They don't see the reflection, 

That I've seen, 
I despise every part of me. 

It's hard to see
, maybe hard to believe
.
Right now I just want to feel numb,

Don't want to taste any more blood.

No more hurt, I've had enough.

Don't give me love. 

Just lay me down to rest in peace,

that is all I need,

I've seen all I need to see,

I've been all I need to be,

I'm ready now take me, please.

Let me lay down to rest at ease.

©2017 Written By Benji James